Friday's Will

If you don’t do it now,

you risk losing your chance,

and opportunity to react.

Once you miss your chance and the gift has passed,

it’s impossible to go back.

Fear is a paralyzing force; controlling your choices-

even when you know your desire is well-

Fear stops your decisions;

halts your blessings,

and can make it impossible to prevail-

Move with haste and with plenty conviction;

how it feels in the spirit, that’s called intuition-

Things are not always what they seem- at times it was merely deception-

You must create your own dreams

And call it inception.

If your reality is skewed, best change your perception-

We help dictate our outcomes for freewill is a gift-

And as the world turns,

we can feel every shift.

And when things fall apart,

we recognize the callous rift-

Can’t control the past-

can only change, today-

And what you do now can change your life along the way-

So just take the day & seize it.

Well.

You can make it like heaven or create your own hell-

All can be well, or all can be for the birds-

Happiness is your choice-

So speak your own words.

Not you but Me

We became secret lovers- but started like public friends- 

A deep relationship-but no title can represent;

Or so he says..So I say 'cool.'

I’ll play the part- from start to go- long as he know,

no other lady better come between us;

don’t care if she's sweeter than Sadie –

but then I think again; second guess and question, maybe- 

I’ll bend the rules, if I do choose for a man that can save me;

a man who steps up, don’t give a fuck, game is tight, his pockets right, consistent fight,

and think about me beyond the nasty we did during the night;

yes, that would be ideal-

but, let me not jump the gun,

cuz' shooting yourself in the foot is not how any victor ever won;  

He says ‘girl you so special’ but he’s not ready for commitment-

I just continue to pretend - his rationale, I can't comprehend-

As we continue to swim- this pool of lust could drown Michael Phelps-

backstroke,

frontstroke,

Olympic dives for my deepest prize; the ecstasy between my thighs; the passion deep within his eyes-

I get seasick from this shit; but I can’t leave his pool so quick- 

winning is never really easy and I’m just not ready to quit-

It truly fucks up my mind and distorts my reality;

but I just pardon this cuz' the word says 'as a man thinketh then so is he'-

So it must be real, he must be true, he must be the only one for me

and I continue to lose myself in this jagged complexity. 

Losing sight of all that's right; sacrificing my dignity. 

Seemingly slave to a cave of physical rhapsody.

But I sadly been through this be-4 –so give me an A for letting it B-

I guess at times I'm 2 blind to C because he has the most amazing D-

feels like I’m on E whenever he’s inside of me. So as we F and he touches my G-

I continue to two-step to his rhythm-

a dark twisted fantasy; I don't know how to shake it off;

if only I had strength and could- alone then I would be- 

but the night time is so dark, and so chilly are my sheets-

and so empty is my house; so i call him to take off my blouse-

I cannot fight the urge; afraid of my inner capacity- 

but I continue to play his game until I can come to grips with

Me.